PMs

Something that has not happened for some time happened again... Guess Im never strong enough...happy enough...grateful enough... friendly enough...loving enough... in short...im pathetic...

that is the p....

To some people...words speaks louder than the actions themselves...yes...a chnage in the norm...but id rather think that words can cut you more deeply... especially since...it is always lack of actions... One can say time and time again that he/she loves you...but can not show it... But how would you know? and if you were to just listen to the words and wait for actions...you are in for some disappointments.... the heart is a fragile...wonderful thing...that should not be messed around with (DUH)... and it also hurts the most when words are not expressed properly... a push...or a shoove...or a punch...is nothing to the intense pain in the heart... you live on....

Ok...I must have crapped alot there... but yeah...digress...digress.... I feel so pathetic...because since young Ive always tried to impress people...but of course never successful... and now when I am to shine...Im like a blown out light bulb...to be disposed off... Ive always thought that Im not loved...and never will be... so I end up being the defensive one...the "Queen" without a crown...even now I always feel left out...

Now what is Ms? hmmm...the uncreative 1 is gonna say miss... so its pathetic miss.......... kinna like vanda miss joaqim... but of course...on the contrary...that is a famous orchid....

nothing else I wanna say...but goodbye.... suddenly lost the mood to blog....