PMs

Something that has not happened for some time happened again... Guess Im never strong enough...happy enough...grateful enough... friendly enough...loving enough... in short...im pathetic...

that is the p....

To some people...words speaks louder than the actions themselves...yes...a chnage in the norm...but id rather think that words can cut you more deeply... especially since...it is always lack of actions... One can say time and time again that he/she loves you...but can not show it... But how would you know? and if you were to just listen to the words and wait for actions...you are in for some disappointments.... the heart is a fragile...wonderful thing...that should not be messed around with (DUH)... and it also hurts the most when words are not expressed properly... a push...or a shoove...or a punch...is nothing to the intense pain in the heart... you live on....

Ok...I must have crapped alot there... but yeah...digress...digress.... I feel so pathetic...because since young Ive always tried to impress people...but of course never successful... and now when I am to shine...Im like a blown out light bulb...to be disposed off... Ive always thought that Im not loved...and never will be... so I end up being the defensive one...the "Queen" without a crown...even now I always feel left out...

Now what is Ms? hmmm...the uncreative 1 is gonna say miss... so its pathetic miss.......... kinna like vanda miss joaqim... but of course...on the contrary...that is a famous orchid....

nothing else I wanna say...but goodbye.... suddenly lost the mood to blog....

Just in the mood to.....

Today....I'm just in the mood to blog.... maybe due to the aching right jaw..or the aching heart... either or...it doesn't really matter does it...? Just somehow got to fill this dreadfully dusty space...haha!

Warning: long entry ahead!!

Oh how I wish i have fantastic grammar and vocab to impress... I cannot even type T-H-E nowadays...it would always be teh.... haha... dear tehbee...if you are reading this...was that why you got part of your nick?

Hmmm...what should I blog on...I have so much to tell...but then again...I think I've reported on the series if unfortunate events after my return to whoever who would care to listen to my constant cries....? Yes...for the first two weeks whe I was back...I was practically crying myself to sleep... Silly me... but the cries I meant here is the cries of my whinning....complaining...and what not.... yes... nothing good... poor them...having to listen...or tolerate my msn conversations with them... He he... but a BIG HUGE GIGANTIC MASSIVE (ok enough....hehe) hug to them and THANK YOU!! Afterall...it is not as if they were in high spirits or relaxed to be listening to me.... About what? hmmm....my failures...my unle passing eay and my family not wanting to tell me...and my relationship worries.... Yeah...nothing new huh? Me failing....but i PROMISE not to disappoint my family and dearies out there...

Ok...my family does not know that I failed 2 modules...I just do not want to hear what they would say....It is not as if I am having fun over there...partying...smoking...drinking... I've been stressed...not being able to study... til all I want to do when I am at home is watch TV or surf the net...I am just waiting for people to chat with (poor U lots) and wishing I have friends like the rest do...Probabaly I've been too closed up...just wanting to stick to him...until it seems to him that I am dependent on him...but it is just that I am not able to make friends there...and he is the only 1 I know...and unfortunately...want to be with....(Continuation:relationship...now it's on school...haha) Hopefully next year...a new year...a new place...would mean a new me...ermmm...not exactly a changed me...but a more independent me....I would still be the irritating one...so beware people...hahaha! Oh yeah...so because I failed Unit Ops...I would have to take the module again...but the sickening thing is that I would have to take it with this individual...who makes my blood boil...and ARRGGGH!!! I just cannot stand him...and the feelings mutual...I am so glad for that... I still remember the day he shouted at me because he says I was not being a team member...not a part of the brotherhood..(confusion over anatomies on his part there) I actually did not shout back as I normally would...or cry... instead I logged on to msn...checked who was online...and typed: Ah Pui yao ken woh dah jia...Har mah woh... and the disclaimer...han yu pin yin sux...hopefully u understand wad I said... there wasnt any1 online that understood malay...haiz.... Oh why do I despise him? 1) He irritates me 2) I hate his work ethics... 3) He loves to point out mistakes when not asked to and he thinks he's always right so things have got to go is way.... As I am not a bootlicker or 1 from his country, and also 1 who does not like to be criticised...I was not the demure, polite girl I should be... Oh well...That is 1 enemy...among 0 friends....

no wonder we have wars...hmmm....

Ok...enough about the friendless me... next..my aching neck and jaw.... Initially I tought the pain was due to wisdom teeth... I don't know how I came up with that..but that was just my theory... Or because I had not been sleeping properly. But the pain was to intense 1 night that my mom asked me to go to the doctors to have it checked out.... after seeral "AAAHHHSSS" the dr said she could not diagnose me so sent me to a specialist... So 2 days later i went down to Mt E...greeted by teh friendly staff or teh clinic...and then...the dr... He said he had to do a scope to see what was going on in my throat... He took out this "thing" that looked like a torch light...got to see my nose hair and throat (would not be painting you a picture on that...he he)...was thinking thank god my nose was clean...and I had blown my nose...I had a cold the day before so I was worried...hahaha! As I said...not too bad....or so I thought... He pulled out this long thing after that... DEN-DEn-DEn!! (drama...haha) The scope....He explained to me that he would insert it from my nose..and slowly...it would go down my throat....oh-kay.......... So in it went...stage nose: cleared stage throat: Yikes!! To me it was pinful...but more so uncomfortable then painful....It is like when you try to swallow something that you did not chew properly...except that this this just would not go away... So I had to try swallow my salive and view the exciting show of :my throat. He was trying to pin point the "pain area" and take a picture of it...but I just wanted it out.... tug-of-war... aha! Whenever he asked me if that area hurts...of course the silly 1 said yes...hoping he would stop.. He went further...and further...til he was convinced my "arghh!!" meant yes...that was teh affected area... In the end he said there was nothing wrong with my throat...and he does not know what is causing my pain... but asked my to refrain from eating 'drinking dairy products and meat like chicken...and no spicy and oily food.... uh-huh?? Do you think I can do taht when I'm back here?? Anyway...he gave me antibiotics (that seemed to work...) and asked me to come back a week later for follow-up...and yes...another scope...second time there...same thing...he does not know why...but does not want me to continue on antibiotics...gave me another medicine that I can take when I feel that I have phlegm...ear pain..and I cannot remmeber what else..hahaha! I took that when my pain returned...but...no it does not help... I am in pain...again...sigh.......My dad paid 300 bucks for my check-up...just to have me in pain again.....I feel like emailing him(because he said I can email him anytime) and tell him the pain is back... but then...Ive not been listening on his food restrictions... ha ha ha.... how? I have pain killers...hahaha! It is like as if the bone is scraping the neck muscles right now...and just now...it was my jaw line....no wonder I thought it was my wisdom tooth...

Ok...next issue...relationship....Sigh... I know I should not be whinning about this but be grateful that someone wants to be with me....Actually I feel bad blogging about this when I know....never mind...do not feel like mentioning... but sorry yeah...

I feel unappreciated...unloved...and as if i'm taken advantage of in this relationship....I now it is not his fault that he feels he cannot tell me some things when I demand that the relationship shold be an open...trusting one....Why did I use the word demand? Simply because to him, I am demanding...and controlling... I had ideas of us married....happily ever after style...but not any more... I cannot remember having a pleasant dream with him in it.... I've had dreams of me being with other guys (PG ones not RA)...and one I used to like... Yes, I admit it...I liked him..but not in the How-I-Wish-He-Would-Ask-Me-Out kinna way....It was just the similar interests... When would he talk openly with me? when we are having an argument (strong ones...with both shouting) or when he is drunk...so hooray for me!! I do not feel like talking to him nowadays...and he does not even call me when I don't.... Guess it is my fault for being too emotional...sensitive...and whatever.... but that is all I would say for now... He is still my BF....just that the B is not best....

Enough of ranting for now....the eat-sleep-play facebook queen is tired of blogging....until next time.... sweet dreamzzzzzzzzzz..............and take care...

Hi!

I feel streesed out... Don't know what I am doing...I'm so left behind... nobody to turn to... No listening ear that can take my utter nonsense...my grumblings...my arguments... No one to talk to as well... I am that uninteresting and irritating huh?

I look forward to emails...blog entries...and chat sessions to keep me occupied... But I have nothing to write...nothing to say... because I am so full of negativites that all I am is a black box... waiting for the controller to feed me...(or the black box of a plane where u recover during crashes...unimportant unless if there is a mishap) I so looked forward for this phase of my life...but I might have jinx it all by looking too far ahead too soon... Would there even be a graduation?

A graduation....yes.. in life...not just academically... Now I don't even see the fuure...Ask me what do I want..and I would just look at you...with a blank look... Anything that comes my way I guess? I am a dissapointment... to myself and to others who had some hope in me...

It is hard when you feel down and you have to worry or care about someone else... when you feel stressed out but you can't tell others because they are feeling the same way too... Well...Isnt so bad right if everyone is in the same boat? Not really when you have to cheer them up...or say something useful...and not flare up because you are worse off than them but they are the ones whinning....

But when you need them most...they are not there...unlike my dear dear friends out there... he he...:) there...a smile....

Is it that bad? No happy moments? Or am I just too overly critical...ignorant...and closed up that I just Do not se it when I should have... I am waiting for the time to tell the world how happy I am...being me...not having somebody else stealing my limelight... Just smiling away and mean it...and just spread the happiness...the joy around me...

Maybe it is just how I am...maybe I am just an attention seeker... maybe...maybe.... but a must be is that.....I must be happy....right?

So that is why I have not been updating...everytime I blog...it is something sad...bad..angry...that I do not feel like boring or burdening (yeah right) you... but well... I must say something right? he he he

Take care....

Hi

Tomorrow would be the start of Ramadhan in Singapore... Here it is on Friday... I thought it would be alright... but I miss my family more than ever...and its not even raya yet... I am gonna miss the times when mum or sis (who never sleeps at night) would have to drag me out of bed to eat... and there Id be...pulling a long face because I want to continue snooozziiinng.... I am gonna miss the times when I gorge myself with dates...thinking I wld have enough energy for the whole day just cause I ate dates...and when I would gulp down at least 2 glasses of water (and a cup of tea cause mum made it) just before times up... Dad would buy food for break fast...if mum is too tired to cook or if she cant think of what to cook...or whenever he feels like buying/eating smt... Realised ive always taken things for granted...Mum and dad always doing things for us...pampering us...I had always thought mum loves sis more because well...she never scolded or beat her...she just let her be... She loves me so :) I am going to miss all those for 2 years... what else wld i miss other than being woth family and friends? going to the bazaar at geylang...even though standards dropped...its just the atmosphere...and there are foodie there... he he... What wldn't I miss then? hmmm...cleaning the house the day BEFORE raya... I am so gonna miss mum's special cooking...but Im so not gonna miss spring cleaning! That...I can blog in a mths time... Hopefully for this mth...I can control my ever growing temper..not curse...and basically be a good girl... he he... Eh although I m not into alcohol and cigarettes... Me a good girl takes lots of work! Ok...oscar(ina) the grouch is sleepy...and is gonna go sleep...Would not bore you with repeated details that Im bored here...and ive lost interest (i'm lost...basically).

selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan...

I Miss Home...

Today is national day...42nd Birthday... watched the parade online... typical march...(hard to see if there were any hunks in uniform...haha!)...the performances... apart from the stage... same-o-same-o....

1 thing different? Im not there in Singapore... Watching the fireworks...made me sigh... I would have been somewhere watching...Not bothering about the crowd(aftermath esp)... I love watching fireworks... But thinking of all that made me think of home...my home...not the country... I miss my mum...dad...grandma..baby raina...dear friends...sis...(even though she was bugging me on how to fix the comp...haiz...)

Here I am...not alone...but watching the parade made me think of home more...!

Im already thinking of Nov...when I get to go back home...God.. I really have no motivation to study here! My grades are "exCellent"...but the drive is just not there... what am I to do...? I really do no know... sigh... maybe U is not for me? People keep telling me to hang in there...but am I wasting my time...n money... I dunno... Yes... all this from missing home... hahaha! I digressed? or is it because my heart is not here...

Give me a week more... and I ll tell you... because after that... it would be too late...

But I DO Miss home....

miss me? haha...

did the quiz...here is the results..haha

You are constantly hoping that your good fellowship and attitude and your 'love for your fellow man (or women)' will give you peace of mind. You need people - people around you to care for you and to show you that they care. It is this hope that keeps you going, the hope that makes you the type of person that indeed you are. Your own need for approval seemingly makes you always ready to help others and in exchange you seek love, warmth and understanding. You will always listen to others and you are open to new ideas which hopefully will prove fruitful and interesting.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

Many people will consider you egotistical and full of your own self importance. On the surface you could well give this impression and perhaps the reason for this complacent attitude is because at times you indeed have that 'short fuse' and are quick to take offence.

Presently, you are experiencing stress because of restriction on your independence. You need and seek respect from other people and it is essential that they appreciate you for yourself and not for what they would like you to be. You have your own beliefs and convictions and you would like to be respected for them. You are anxious to avail yourself of every opportunity that may come your way but nevertheless, come what may, you have the need to control your own destiny without imposed limitations or restrictions.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!

did the quiz again...here are the results...indecisive me... haha!

Your mind is never at rest.You are continually striving to influence all those about you. You have some excellent ideas but you persist in trying to persuade others just how great your ideas really are. Maybe you are trying too hard. Take it easy - remember, 'Everything comes to those who wait'.

You are a very warm and emotional individual but unfortunately in the past too many people have taken advantage of this sensitive trait. You need aesthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm understanding. The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren't quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.

You give the impression that you are a self-sufficient individual, pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure. But this is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional person, one that may make hasty decisions and perhaps repent at leisure. It is time now perhaps to break the bond of detachment and become the real 'you' - the you that you would like to be.

From every direction there appear to be unwarranted restrictions on your freedom of action and this is producing considerable stress. You're really looking for independence and freedom from any restriction and therefore avoiding any obligations or anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressures and you would like nothing better than to escape from them but you tend to lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this. Whichever way you turn you are being frustrated. You need to be free to do your 'thing' in your own way.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!

all riight then... I ll MOVE! haha...

Sensitivity

I think we all know by now that i can get rather emotional...sensitive... but what I don't get is how some can be so bloody insensitive! They only care for themselves and they say they are living their lives... but do they actually spare a thought for the people around them? If they are in need...If they cannot cope with something...if they actually care? Yeah...some do...but do not give a damn.... Yeah...live your life my dear...but don't leech...go get your own place...go get a life (the irony) Unless of course what U mean by living your life is by making other people suffer...other people responsible for you... then it is unfortunaltely not yours alone isnt it? crap...Just because of kinship Im not supposed to bother...god...that IS why I bother... If you are someone else...I DO NOT CARE!! Ive go too many other worries that I created on my own thank you... I am !@#$ing leaving...so yes...its up to my freaking timing...id go wherever i want...meet up whoever i want... NAK KENE IKUT MASA DIA? Ye! Selalu ni kan ikut kata-kata kau...people have been dancing to your bloody tune... and since you insis that every1 should e living their own lives... dnt interfere in mine...Id be with whoever i want...who cares what you think or say... you dnt do things to make others happy...why shld i make u happy?! I was sad that I had to leave earlier... but now...Im happy...so that I dnt have to bother trying to talk to you and wonder if I can live your life..just do nothing... I can't...I care too much... guess sometimes I just have to care less eh? Is that your message... well... point taken i guess... Learn the value of time my dear...because you cant live life if there is no time...

la-di-da-di-da

LALALLAALALLA!!! I am done with the semester!! was it tough? yes! gggrrr...

I might have to repeat the module again... sigh... apart of me doesnt feel like studying anymore...especially after i saw the sch fees ive got to pay for next term... keep thinking.. WHAT WAS I THINKING! I am stupid... Im not smart...im not wealthy... I should be helping my dad...working... well apart from the return ticket back to brisbane and the 1000bucks deposit...ive not taken money from him.. When my mum asked him why...he was like she didnt ask or say how much... sigh...

now i keep thinking if i should continue... another reason why i wanted to study (apart from hating em and always wanted to get a degree...) is so that my sis would be forced to get a job... but it is not the case... she is still jobless...by choice... I feel guilty... and how am i to pay the bank after i graduate...?? Sigh.... where am i going to get the money for next year? I cnt depend on him...or any1 else for that matter...

I think I wanna get a part-time job...since attachments are hard to get in Singapore...for less than 3 mths... I wanna go back home... Since I wnt be back for puasa...I wana be there for haji... at least 1 festival with the family... by hook or by crook...i need to earn money.. so that i can survive til june... then june worry again... sigh... Did I make the wrong choice... I think if my grades are really sucky (which i would know in 2 weeks time) I might consider dropping out... at least i gained some experiences... next time...when things are more settled...I can continue again... how? I know... I should not be looking back...but I need to think what's best...

and no... I was not here because he is here..just to set it clear again... haha...

ciao! see ya in the sunny...humid island... SINGAPORE soon!

1 more to go...

Just done with maths... crap... I could have gotten more marks...I knew how to do the last question... but the brain wasnt registering..the pen werent writing... crap... could have gotten more than 5 marks! anyway....what was done...is done... so now...the best thing of all...1 more paper to go! hooray! I just cannot wait to go back home (Siti doesnt miss me...so i dnt miss her... he he he...) til the 22nd...when i would probably blog again... ciao!

2 more days..4 papers...then home!!

My first paper is on the 9th...Statistics...god...how I LOVE Stats... gonna start studying now... been trying to practice on maths the last few days... but somehow never in the mood and not absorbing... studying not for me anymore? hhmmm...

anyway... Thermodynamics on the 15th.. Im so scared that its that soon... I dunno where to start! Ive forgotten all the earlier parts and 1 question would be based on that... the other Qs are on chemical thermodynamics... sigh...

18th...math...I loved Poly math... seriously...but I do not get the math here... prob because too bz doing the other assignments to practice math here...and also cause i didnt understand the later parts...which are gonna be tested on...

and 21st...the last paper...heat and mass transfer... I failed the last quiz and because of that i have to pass the paper or Ill fail the course altogether... how great right?

I am trying not to go crazy...I dnt work well under pressure...but it is scary... the last time i took a test was advanced theory (and I had to take it a second time to pass...haha) so my examz skills...rusty... I ve let myself down...Ive been tryin to study...but its too hard...I can't...not that the modules are tough...it is just that it is hard concentrating and studying... I don't feel "intelligent" or "smart"... I do hope Id do well... giving up has come to mind... sigh... the boredom... ha ha...

25th June...SINGAPORE!! hooray!! cnt wait... although i ll be on the flight alone... the might not be able to get tickets if still on waiting list on 13th... guess the would be alone here... for a mth... while i enjoy singapore... ha ha ha... the reverse now...

Alrite... see ya soonnn.... btw...no presents this time...cause no $$ next time k? he he...

hhhmmm

humans can be superstitious... like why is it it is bad to take a picture with 3 people? Ans: because one person in the group would separate from the other two... Is this true...? or just coincidences...? It is always hard to keep a relationship anyway... I remember always taking pictures with my cousin and sis when we were young...but as we grew up, we stopped talking...in fact, we have not met for eons... is it the curse? no...just that we grew up and things werent the same.. I still do care for my cousin... wonder if the cousin would be getting married soon...keep having dreams that the cousin.. When I was in sec sch...took pictures with 2 other friends...but had a misunderstanding with 1 of the girls...and after that...had no friends in sec school....was it the curse? It was my own doing actually...listening to people...being too sensitive...not being clear headed...possessive... Oh well...at least that girl has those people...whom i listened to...as her forever friends... It doesnt matter...me have me dearies... he he... ya...u reading this... Yes, it is not the superstition...(yes...youve been busy...and have other prople to think/care)
It is not because you got up on the wrong side of the bed...It is not because you walked under the ladder...It is not because you switched seats while eating....the list goes on!!! Most of the time, superstitions seem silly... but we still belive them... they are drilled in our heads..carved on our brains..imprints..we know... some superstitions are like our culture! We do question them...but we still do or avoid them... oh welll...we humans are always looking for reasons...but we are followers... even the most hard headed person is a follower...

Human race...we are all of that race arent we? Are we all that different?? character wise...yes we are different...but there are similarities...looks? not really...its been said there are 7 other people (or is it 6) who looks like u in this earth...(could be more/less now with plastic surgery...who wld want to look like me anyway?) we all have a nose...2 eyes...2 ears...a mouth...a face... different colour makes the world a more interesting place to live in...variety... he he... so whats the big deal? why is it that humans are subdivided...segregated... if it's not race...it's religion...or class...

It is sad that...he is being excluded...because his choice partner is not of his similar group...what i dont get is why cant humans coexist in this world... why I say that...? war...fight for power...etc and this guy who is brave enough to choose something different (problem so little in a big big world...hahaha) Why is it that his friends, who he listens to...confides in...disapprove...is it because the know she is not for him...or because the girl is not from a similar group...? If its the former...good for them... The final outcome...it was just not meant to be... God...I have the song Im a big,big girl in a big big world in my head now...
I think Ive writen much...too much... I do not know if i even make sense...(do i?) I still do miss....i mean it...and i don't want regrets.. Don't look back...

The I entry

Update

What ive been...
Ive been busy...
Ive been lazing...
Ive been failing...
Ive been bored...
Ive been boring...
Ive been irritating...
Ive been depressed...
Ive been empty...
Ive been sighing...
Ive been missing...

What ive not been...

Not been blogging...updating...
Not been trying...
Not been doing...
Not been concentrating...
Not been forgetting...
Not been a friend...
Not be somebody...

I actually tried to write a poem (yeah...me...a poet...a lovely thought...) as as soon as I started to type...I had already forgotten the words in my head...(another not huh? not been creative) Well as long as you get the picture (of the post) It doesnt really matter... I will try to update more often..I really have got to start pushing...and stop dwelling... Too many thought for my tiny brain to hold...I do sound like as if Im rambling here...sorry but yeah...

I HAVE GOT TO START somewhere before it gets too late... Hmmm...actually...Im good at starting things...just bad at ending...I rarely finish up things that I start doing...But as sson as I purchase something- for example- I cannot wait to get home and start on it ( or even take it out on the bus and train) I think I just cannot get enough of new things... END!! END!! Anyway...START and END!! before it is too late... motto of the day...Do I actually make sense here...seriously? Oh well...

Take care all...

nothing in particular...

Dont you ever wish that you can freeze time? Like that character in the show "Heroes"...the japanese guy...whos hilarious (to me) ? I would like to...and just do finish up what i have to...do something else...blah blah... So many things that i can think of...all within 24hrs... haha... yeah right...I know... Nah...did not get that idea from watching "Heroes"...have not been following the series...sad... But whenever i look at this picture though...

hmm...a picture of my sis and me at the airport... Nope...its not here because id want some comments on how "alike" we are (although u r welcome to...hehe) but because i like the picture... I do not know who took it actually...and because ive been lazy...and ive got nothing to blog abt...im just gonna put up a piture that i like... But dnt u think its nice? Its like just the two of us...frozen...while time goes by... tick tock tick tock... Do you actually see the link with the intro? hmmm....Whatever..im a terrible blogger...haha!

Yeah... either im not bloging abt boredom...its about time... sorry about that... haha! Well... Thats my share today...

ta!

Well...SO far...so ok ah...Cannot really say its been good... but...seems that the more im online...the more I get sidetracked...Time seems to fly by ssooo fast lately...soon it would be June...Then December...Then its the New Year again.... Wow...
Anyway... Here are some stuff to share with u gd ppl...

Firstly...

Aren't they adorable...? (I'm a bad photographer...yes...but..) seriously... In case u were wondering wad they r...the croc is a stapler and the other two are badges...From dear Maryam who is in Wales(Swansea to be precise)...Thought she would just send me a card..(reminded me that they - Krystle,Cheryl and Maryam - gave me a card valid for 2 yrs...hmmm...either they didn't know my age...or didn't think we would still be in contact...which?? haha... n ps: Krystle...the card saved u...since the wish is for 2 yrs)... Didn't have time to really update...so couldn't post that up...he he... All the best Maryam in your studies... Sure U d do well... Come on... U did gd in Poly...( compared to my crappy results...haha) and ud do better in U? ok? Of course...enjoy yourself...every chance u get to...he he...
N Krystle...Just because U ain't studying now doesn't make u lesser of anything...( u make more money yeah? haha!) So be happy...and will never forget u gal...alright?


And...the latest addition....

Frankie! ( I didn't name him...the manufacturers did...If its up to me...he be...ermmm...furry?heheehe..im bad at naming things)... I thought he s cute...although there was another...Noah..(didn't bring my camera so can't show u the difference)... he he..cute? He keeps me company at nite wad...since taz isn't ard...yes...taz as in the tazmanian Devil....my favourite wacky warner bros character...haha...he has character...ohkay? yupz...one of the spec to finding mr right...crazy like the tasmanian devil...not the animal though... so not cute lah.. Anyway...thats frankie!


ok...hmmm...other than the fact that i miss ramlee(ramly?) burger and i cnt wait til June...have got nothing to blog abt... so til we meet again... ciao...

stats?

Im tired... n Stats sux... like waaddd...???? god... hhmmm... I seem to pity or shld i say overly compassionate to older folks working...walking alone... Id always say..."kesian" (translation: pity)... unless that one grannie at the mrt station who spitted at us (irz n me) and cursed us...cause she said, in malay, that we(or me) kept looking... but we were only walking to the end... haha! anyway... yeah... even wen i had old teachers and they werent gd teachers...id still try to be attentive...try only lah...cause im never attentive...haha! n dnt make nasty comments abt their teching (n abt them)... Oh well... just a thought... suddenly felt like blogging dat....

Anyway... stats sux....

Sigh....

Been very emotional... kinna depressed... and I cant study... What is wrong with me??? Isnt it time that Ive gotten used to life here... sigh... so lonely.... life is empty without ya babes...hahaha! But seriously... I dunno if its because its the time of the mnth.....or could be time of the yr...soon...

Dnt mind the unstructured writing... just listing down my thoughts... hehe... HELP sumbody... sigh... I cnt carry on like this....seriously...I wldnt be able to pass if I do...

ANd to make things worse...im very bored..........................still...heh! a trend huh...? I know...get over it! or i might just have to pack up....

Hi!

Hmmm... I actually forgot my blog addie... til now... Irzana... u remembered? haha... Excuse me for my sloppy writing first of all... haha... Kinna boring here... Ive got to take up/ do smt to destress... yes...im so super stressed la!! Its my choice rite....? so must go through... life without stress... yeah rite... I dnt watch anime...i dnt like... I dnt play games... hmmm... I dunno... I just dnt do wad the rest does... sianz..... I snd boring... yeah... and the boring 1 is bored... haah! god... Wld put up pictures wen i have time ya!

New day..new place..

New day..new place..n im bored.. No tv..or internet..boring songs on radio n the worse..i cnt sleep!Well..not homesick yet..just kinna miss the prices...and the "life" in sgp.. its quiet here n nothing to do aft 6..da+s 4 in sgp..!